A lowly fate
Descends upon my entirety
Constricting my arms and legs
And ushering a waltz
To its gradual, and melancholic tune

The life around me sputters
Each day more deafening than the last
I unknowingly rush for the final gasp
And collide with a harsh reality
Bold, honest and new

It was a fate longed for in secret
Perceived in each mist-shroud dawn
Evaded through the rolling mane of day
And a burden upon my spine at rest

I unravel through fate’s hellish rearing
Silently yearning for more
Each rancid weight cast off
As food for my new shimmering day

This luminous spectacle I have earned
Brightens the lairs of my monstrous deceit
The night is unmasked
Peering into the morn
Its lacerations healed
Its skin flooding with color

I did something very stupid and now my parents have to clean up the mess.. They have decided to cut me off financially, but fortunately they aren’t going to kick me out. I got into a long discussion with my father and i told him everything i have been holding back over the years. I told him about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, and my anxiety, i even broke down and cried in front of him. I told him that i didn’t want to continue school and that i wished to seek employment instead.. This might not be permanent. I may decide to go back to college someday, but at this time i’m not too sure of anything! My future is very uncertain. I just don’t know what the fuck i am going to do. I’m in a lot of trouble here.